Summer Changes…
Well, summer is in full swing, although it almost seems to be a memory in many ways. School starts back for youths everywhere, and while UT Martin and other schools have a few more weeks of freedom, I can’t help to think what a crazy summer it has been for me, and for ByGrace.
It’s a hard time in life for me. Please pray for me. If you know me, call. I feel as though words cannot explain the depths of my heart and every time I get started talking to God it seems as though I am exhausted and cannot focus on what is to be said- on what needs to be heard. I have trouble with patience, with trying to wait for opportunities, for what God wants. I want what I want now– but then again what do I want? Do you know what you want in life? Many times I wish ByGrace would take off… I wish that I could be like the disciples (Jesus told them to go and not worry about anything– to go and not worry about the food they ate, but to rest in the Spirit and the love of their brothers and sisters.) I feel like such a hippy for saying this, but what if we did just totally trusted God? I think that’s my biggest issue. There is so much darkness and fear that I really don’t want to wait around or try to figure it out. But as this week continues on, I want to rest. I want to lay myself down. It seems like I need control to do A B C D E F, etc, but do I?
25“Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life, what you will eat or drink; or about your body, what you will wear. Is not life more important than food, and the body more important than clothes? 26Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they? 27Who of you by worrying can add a single hour to his life[b]?
28“And why do you worry about clothes? See how the lilies of the field grow. They do not labor or spin. 29Yet I tell you that not even Solomon in all his splendor was dressed like one of these. 30If that is how God clothes the grass of the field, which is here today and tomorrow is thrown into the fire, will he not much more clothe you, O you of little faith? 31So do not worry, saying, ‘What shall we eat?’ or ‘What shall we drink?’ or ‘What shall we wear?’ 32For the pagans run after all these things, and your heavenly Father knows that you need them. 33But seek first his kingdom and his righteousness, and all these things will be given to you as well. 34Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own.
Matthew 6:25-34
So there’s the call and also the answer in so many ways. It’s not a girl, or a car, or a house. It’s resting in who you are. Who you are called to be. Who you were made to worship. I need help… Lord, let me give my worry to You tonight. Let me rest in Your Promise. Be with Matt and Karen as they have gone to Knoxville. Be with ByGrace. Lead me to Your feet. I need You now.